Child abuse question? (Serious.)?

This is absolutely NOT normal. What your father has done to you is serious emotional abuse, physical abuse, and very likely ual abuse based on the memory you recalled only recently. Are you still living with him? If so, are you old enough to save money and move out on your own. You shouldn't subject yourself to his abuse any longer. There is a very good chance that his abusiveness will have a profound impact on your relationships and self-image for a very long time. I would get hooked up with a very good therapist as soon as possible. You can not get through this on your own. Do you have people in your life who you can trust? Perhaps open up and share your experiences with one or two people. You will need all the support you can get to work through all of this. Your father is a very, very troubled man and his behavior toward you is inexcusable. Good luck. You didn't (don't) deserve any of this. I wish you all the best in the future.